Sunday, April 29, 2012

The Omitted






After a while as I was filling an application form today, I realized that I was missing the alphabet ‘e’ repeatedly. We all, I suppose, usually omit random alphabets while writing. That happens. What took my attention today was that I was omitting only ‘e’.
May be I was tired. Even though I skip every time, ‘e’ in the word haven’t, just because at some time during my teenager years, I had developed the habit of using SMS lingo, all the time. Still, it bothered me. Only if I could erase memory of this incident! Yes the movie, ‘Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind’ came to my mind, but other things, as usual, also followed..

I imagined a scenario with my family and me, sitting together, chatting, smiling, enjoying. And then suddenly, I vanishing, dissolving in the air, omitted from the scene. It would happen instantly.
I would evaporate in the frozen time.
And then my memories getting erased from family’s minds.
They would be confused later, seeing a cup of tea, my clothes lying on my seat. Their confused senses would sense something amiss. My belongings, photographs, voice recordings, cards, gifts, poems, writings that will catch them eventually will force them to think. They would try to establish my identity and their relationship with me, but it would go in vain.
Then, they would try to understand their habits related to me. My mom coming to my room in morning to switch off the night lamp, but finding no one in the room. My sister dialing my number not knowing whom to talk to. The sudden free time left in the life of those that otherwise was spent talking to me. The habits would frustrate them. But then they are ‘Habits’. With time, habit without purpose erodes away. It is transient in nature. And if the essence of the habit is not reminded, it is forgotten.  My vanishing into the infinite followed by a short phase of vanishing habits will be all. They would eventually then go on. They wouldn’t place the omitted in their lives.

I have had such friends in many phases of my life without whom I used to think life would cease to exist. Now I just remember their names and very few things related to those times spent with them. New people came in and took their places which obviously happened in a very gradual way. They have been like different curtains on windows of my life with different capabilities of filtering light. I got used to all of them till they vanished or were substituted.

What bothers me the most is the fact that we people render nothing worthy, because everything and everyone, times spent in joy and oblivion, enemies and loved ones, at some point of time under some reasonable situations and circumstances can be logically forgotten.
We take pride at something and next moment we delete it. It doesn’t really matter, even if it is restored to its original place from the recycle bin. It loses it’s worth.
 Once omitted, remains omitted forever, even if it is re-established strongly in darker shades.
It is a very strange fact that the ‘Omission’ leaves the darkest mark; darker than any shade of insertion. And yet we skip the ‘Omitted’.

Synthesize the pigments of sorrow, indifference and joy
And color the time with them, it doesn’t matter if you are color blind
as you spread the sheet of time around yourself
and dip the brush of your actions in tears, waterfalls and brine
make it beautiful with shades of success and romance
and then cherish it; I say, hold it high in the day light
and if you don’t like some part or shade of it
bring it and see it with a different aspect, under a different colored lamp
you will then feel the beauty again
and the sorrow will camouflage with joy surrounding
The whole process of painting goes on, on the same canvass
Your dimensions change with each painting
Then one day when your skin and hair would have changed their color
try to place that lovely shade you had once spotted on the canvass
which you had held high with the satisfaction of a monk
with a blissful smile of a first-time-in-life-proud child
You may not find it and the worst being, you may not miss it at all!!
For it would have been omitted from your mind
Like the dreams you ride between sunset and sunrise..



 Image source: http://freelanceweekly.com/2010/03/03/the-case-of-the-vanishing-client/

 

70 comments:

  1. One of the best that has come from your prolific mind!

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  2. thank you:)
    P.S: Finally your comment got posted!!

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  3. Amazing post... loved the poetic lines!! :-)

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  4. Hi Radhika..hearing after a long time from you; felt nice..
    and yes thank you:):)

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  5. Ahaa…good for you, it s only ‘e’… I omit words at times!!
    It s not without any reason that they have delete and backspace buttons and of course the eraser at the other end of a pencil :P
    see…they know how stupid some of us are :P
    but again life is not 2+2 = 4 ha?
    miss, omit…so what?

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  6. uhmn...actually you miss not only words, but things like apostrophe, and most importantly the gist of this blog post and may be of other articles too!!..
    As you said, they have various options and 'equipments' to delete stuff which I know about (I think every one knows about them)..but then this post doesn't talk about "how to delete stuff?"..on the other hand, it talks about how we unconsciously delete stuff and never care to retrieve them for various reasons!!
    Also,this post has got nothing to do with simplicity or complexity of life where you can compare it with maths which usually proves most of the people stupid :P
    And the answer to the last question of yours is what this blog post is mostly about!!Sadly, you didn't get it..understanding it was not as easy as 2+2=4 ha :P

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  7. Awww.. Yes u r so right due to usage of shortcut words while chatting through SMS's v have developed the habit of using these shortcuts everywhere. Even while in exams sometimes i use to use these shortcuts unknowingly :-P And the family scenario u r talkin abt is so scary :) Nice write up Sakshi.. Keep sharing:)

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  8. hehe..that family scene was weird for me..i don't know how it developed in my mind..apologies for scaring you ;)
    Any way..thank you..I'm glad you liked the post,m keep reading and I'll definitely keep blogging :)

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  9. Excellent Post...Thoughts provoking.....

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  10. Very much thought provoking!
    Just happened to come across your blog..normally I only join blog which are entertaining types..bt I couldn't stop myself from joining Yours after reading this post! very interesting stuff :)

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  11. hi...I'm glad that you stumbled upon this blog and happened to like this post :)You see such things propel me to write more..
    and yes thank you for joining :)

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  12. Quite a coincidence. One of my friends was telling me about the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and how much he enjoyed watching it on his second attempt (the first time he got bored after 40 mins). Maybe, I should watch the movie now.

    Life never ceases to surprise us, isn't it? Out of sight, out of mind happens so effortlessly, it's scary at times.

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    1. Yes..life does surprise us as nothing is really predictable and it's scary when things just seem to happen without they being steered by us..
      Also do watch the movie..it's a fantastic movie..

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  13. Beautifully expressed - could relate to most of it as I have had friends who have chosen to 'omit' me from their lives!

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    1. hmn..I'm glad that you could relate to the post..i too have had friends who chose to omit me...perhaps that has got something to do with my wish of getting omitted in the post..and thank you :)

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  14. Loved your post! And the poetry too. Don't we all unknowingly (or not) leave behind so many habits/friends/dreams/likes etc whilst moving ahead in our lives? And by that same logic, get omitted by others too........we need to move on.

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  15. yes that's one of the various aspects of getting omitted and omitting..also we end up moving on, willingly or unwillingly..
    and thank you for stopping by..I'm glad you liked the post and the poem :):)

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  16. An amazing read! I found myself nodding to Every line you've written. It's so hard to bring back the glory of something which is long forgotten. Completly loved reading it :-)

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    1. Hi Ashwini..Thank you:) It is a great feeling when someone understands your thoughts on a particular topic and this is the biggest advantage of being a part of bloggers' community!!
      I'm so glad that you loved reading the post :)

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  17. Well, I should say you put your thoughts very well on paper.. ( over here should say on blog) great... Yes and its very true, nothing is permanent... Like Shakespeare said.. we are just playing our part in a play..

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    1. Thank you:):)
      and yes, we are just playing our play in a play..and I happen to just underline few aspects of that play!!
      Keep visiting :)

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  18. Very true! With time and space, friendships do diminish over a period! Lovely Post!

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  19. Whoa, some post this. We think a lot alike. :)

    I keep getting these in my head every so often. Take care..

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    1. and this is why we blog, to come across people who think a bit more, think alike in some way and write it down. And it's a great feeling!!..keep blogging and so will I!

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  20. Wowww lovely post. Enjoyed reading it :) Having read I was so excite I instantly subscribed to your blog :)

    Here's mine, check it out sometime - http://movieroundup.in/

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    1. Thank you so much :)
      your blog had got a movie reviews' data..! And so I've subscribed to your site too!

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  21. You have penned down the thoughts very well. Nicely done...

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  22. "They have been like different curtains on windows of my life with different capabilities of filtering light." Loved this line! and a beautiful post.

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    1. I love this line too..feels great that you underlined it :)
      and thank you so much :)

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  23. Hi

    It was very nice of you to have added some prose before the poetry...Helped me understand it much better and able to appreciate much better...Beautiful thoughts and expression :)

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    1. I'm glad you were able to appreciate it.. thank you :):)

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  24. Interesting post..enjoyed it :)

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  25. you have hit the nail on the head! could appreciate it even more because i've been through such situations before. i've been the omitted one and also the one who moved on after omitting someone else as well, more often the former case.
    nice read all the same.

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    1. hehe..in my case too, it's generally the former case among the ones you mentioned..!
      I'm glad you were able to connect with the post..keep visiting :)

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  26. Very interesting read, Sakshi. I like the way your mind works and thinks. Intriguing. :)

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    1. thanks a lot Akshay for such a thoughtful comment :)
      I'm glad that you enjoyed the post :)

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  27. Quite an intellectual post, I must say. especially the lines "With time, habit without purpose erodes away"....It does make sense. However, there are some extraordinary people who ensure that they leave such an irreplaceable mark on life and this world, that nobody ever forgets their legacy. Almost like a backup of all that you were and had done.
    Nice post. Keep writing :)

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    1. Thank you :)
      you're right, there are some people who don't get omitted..!
      keep reading :)

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  28. Woah... What a scary thought! Nice one :)

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    1. and that was how my sister reacted ;)
      Thank you :)

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  29. Nice post-it's true that even if something impacts us deeply,still it gets dimmed with time-if this did not happen we would all be muesum pieces.

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  30. :) I am sure you have probably read my comments somwhere I miss letters, words and make so many spelling mistakes that if the blogger doesnot know me they will think what the hell have i written :)

    regarding being ommitted ah well STORY of my life that is, I cant find any example where I am been included .. so you can guess what ommittings I have had :)

    good post

    Bikram's

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    1. hehe..i make a lot of spelling errors too( thanks to spell check though!)
      I know how being omitted feels..glad you were able to connect with the underlying point of thr post :)
      and thank you :)keep reading :)

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  31. Love the nice mix of prose and poetry :) Very well written and keep up your good work

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    1. Thanks a lot :)
      such comments definitely propel me to keep writing honestly :)

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  32. But we cannot keep everything in our minds, we need to forget few things and move ahead...Omission matters... Thoughts define a person and I believe it :-)

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    1. yeah..you're right..there are things better forgotten..but then yes, omission matters..
      keep reading :)

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  33. You make people think and it comes naturally i guess :)

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    1. hehe..i think a lot, that I know :p
      and thank you:)
      your comments are always needed :)

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  34. hey...indeed nice observation. I mean...doesn't it happen with all of us really...?

    I remember, once I had this project of submitting a 'research report' to our CEO & when I did the spell-check, I found out that where-ever I wanted to put 'and', I had only put 'an' & in this process, I completely forgot to put 'd'.

    Now, once I read your article, I am in a little comfy zone as I know there is nothing major wrong with me & it happens with even the best out there....

    so keep writing....

    blessings

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    1. thank you..and yes that is another mistake that I used to make a lot while making notes and giving exams..a rather irritating one..!!
      It does happen with many of us, I suppose..
      keep visiting :)
      I'll keep writing :)

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  35. intriguing....there's a maturity in your words....in your composing...i lik it...keep it going...

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  36. nice one...
    makes you conscious while writing after reading it. and i observed tat i skip the letter "g" while i m typin... :) n we hav changed the spellins completely...

    also ppl frm science background use lot of abbreviations wich de continue to use evn after colleg yrs are long over.

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    1. yes..nice observation..keep reading :)
      and Thank you :)

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  37. "For it would have been omitted from your mind
    Like the dreams you ride between sunset and sunrise" - Brilliant!

    Thoughtful indeed!

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    1. Hey I'm sorry to reply this late, but I somehow I never saw this comment earlier and I don;t know if you will be reading the reply now :(
      All I can say is that I'm really glad you liked the poem and specifically the lines you quoted..Thank You so much..such comments always motivate me to oo on writing :)

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  38. Strange and innovative way of thinking the ending poem says it all...

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    1. I believe you found it to be an interesting read :)
      Keep reading here and I'm glad to see your comments!

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