Friday, July 6, 2012

Desire to desire



If there were cotton seeds, that I could climb upon
I would fly, if only for some distance, I would fly
And if there were any real dragons
I would trick the evil and make it stand in front of the mouth of fire
If I had long hands and sharp nails, I would rise, liberate the sky
by tearing its mask behind which it refrains to cry
And if there were two of me, I would stand in front of me
to understand me, to love me, to know my heart and mind
I know I can do this all but only if I knew how..
Do I need to carry or surrender, the love, the compassion, the ire?
And as I ponder, wander, halt on the highway of my life
I realise, everything I’ve achieved, everything I write
all the songs that I sing, all the fears that I kill
keep me fresh and not stale, warm and not ice-like..
I need to defeat if not conquer, stay alive and not die
Now I know, I can do it all, I could do it all
But only if I had those eyes,
Only if I had those eyes, flaming with desire…..

This life is a dog! No matter how far you throw the grief, it puts all its energy and focus to get that grief back to you.
And it expects you to pat it.
Oh! my dear life, you really don’t get it, do you?
That you need to get a life!

Things that we love, desire, no matter how much passion goes in to fill it, they attain ephemeral characteristics. Whether it’s rain, cool breeze, time spent with friends and loved ones, they all seem to come and go. And yet we desire them every minute of our lives. We spend rest of the time to possess those jewels. You get rich one moment, the next moment your jewels seem to be fake. And you wonder that what is it that you possess. Whether you possess the reality or if it’s the other way round. And most importantly, whether you possess yourself..!

Many a time, I decided to surrender myself to moments of joy, grief, jealousy and their shades and then later recoiled fearing losing myself to those ephemeral moments. Those colorful moments flutter in front of us, attract us, possess us, color us, carry us, and then fly away dropping us somewhere in mid way. You find yourself lost in foreign lands. You then trace back your steps. But you never reach the same place, because time moved the plains. You wonder if it was worth flying for the time-being. Yes of course, why not!! You got to experience the beauty, the sky, the freedom. But what about the fall? Didn’t the landing hurt you? And how many times can you relish the descent in the hope of next ascent if any? Or are you surrendering to the assumption that the journey has to end with descent?

There is nothing wrong with fall, bruised, broken or grief. I’ve patted my life even after it brought me grief. I stroked it with passion and fuelled it with desire. Every time I fell, I searched for scrapes and prepared it for next flight.
Every time I got bruised, I gathered strength to walk and found old and new companions to cheer me up on my way.

On my way, I sipped the sky, and greeted hills
I cut the air above the blue and ran on the sea beach-frills
I did it with passion; I did it with enthusiasm..
On my way, I perched on the branches of grief
I looked down wondering at the wandering nomads
I filched a little momentum from them and left the shadows
I did it with passion, I did it without notions..
On my way, I met so many and flew with few
While we shared meals, recalled our journeys,
I knew they followed different maps
And yet, I did it with passion, I did it with love..
On my way, I witnessed different worlds of joy and glee
Rich fearing the fall, poor hoping the rise, but listening to the same melodies
I felt the despair of free children’s shrills halting with descending swings
I saw it with passion, I saw it all with compassion..
On my way, I dipped my wings in river
I ascended to a height I could not have imagined ever
I knew I may meet the thunder up there
But I did it with passion, I did it with the desire..






image source: http://beforethebabywakes.com/2011/01/flying-bird-prayers-mouth/


65 comments:

  1. Wowa, it was like i started reading fairy tales combined into one...... Gr8 narrative style....One of d best frm ur side yet as per me. :)

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    1. hey..thank you so much :)
      One of the best comments I've got here :)
      Keep reading..!!

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  2. Another awesome post... filled with beautiful words..!!

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    1. thank you so much Radhika :)
      your comments are always awaited..!! :)

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  3. Loved this...surely a blog I want to keep visiting...ever tried your hand at writing shorter expressive poems, like Haikus?

    http://beingdesh.com

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    1. Thank You :)
      haven't tried haiku poetic form yet..will try my hand at it..!!
      And yes keep visiting :)

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    2. read neruda before you start

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  4. Whoa! You write with passion. You write with the desire. Super stuff!

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  5. A beautiful piece of poetic beauty that explores the infinities of ones little ambitions and the craving to do something. A true testimony of a person with thoughts.

    Loved it! Just like ambar said, its a fairy tale and desire to do good rolled into one.

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    1. another beautiful comment from you..!!
      thank you so much :):)

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  6. superb expression sakshi...
    "This life is a dog! No matter how far you throw the grief, it puts all its energy and focus to get that grief back to you.
    And it expects you to pat it.
    Oh! my dear life, you really don’t get it, do you?
    That you need to get a life!"

    EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!

    bless u
    anu

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    1. Thank You Anu, thank you so much :):)
      keep visiting..!!

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  7. Beautiful!! how do you get so much inspiration......and those words, phrases?? amazing!

    Loved these two lines below.......so meaningful!

    "If I had long hands and sharp nails, I would rise, liberate the sky
    by tearing its mask behind which it refrains to cry.."

    also......

    "I perched on the branches of grief
    I looked down wondering at the wandering nomads
    I filched a little momentum from them and left the shadows
    I did it with passion....."

    Planning any book? please let's know!

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    1. hey..sorry for replying so late.
      well..i'm kinda stunned by such a generous and lovely comment..
      and these words, I don't know where they come from and trust me i loathe this fact..if i knew about their origin i would be writing every single day, they just don't visit me frequently :(

      any way..thank you so much for the encouraging comment..and book, well that will come too ;)
      keep reading and thank you once again :)

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  8. Hey it's ok.....I understand :-)

    You rightly put it - those words come from nowhere! but I think, for them to serendipitously flash and astonish us, we should have a backup of good reading and some experiences..... and 'right' time..

    I am sure you are a voracious reader. But still I am amazed how you weave those words to create unique phrases and ideas. Keep it up :-)

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    1. hehe.. ;) thank you :) will try my best to amaze and get amazed;)
      keep reading..!!

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  9. We can't escape from Life, can we..Life is all about enjoying those small moments. Loved the poetry. You come up with some thought provoking posts, Cheers...:)

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  10. Nope, we can't escape from life as we don't know what life is all about..
    and thank you :)
    cheers..!!

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  12. n yeah classy one !! loved it ...

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  13. Cool post... Loved the way it was written... Cheers :-)

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  14. Very nice poem... combined with poetic prose too -- first time I've seen both together in a post! :)

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  15. Wow, i cherish every line while reading, great work Sakshi.
    A surprise gift, you might like :)
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    1. Thank You so much for passing on the awards to me :):)
      I loved the gift..!!

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  16. Hey Sakshi i have an award for you at my blog for your amazing writing go grab it http://thepleasantlyplump.blogspot.com :)

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  17. I liked your post. Especially the beautiful images one can see as he follows your words. Keep up the good work!

    Cheers,
    Soumitra

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    1. Thank You! I'm glad you liked my post :)
      keep reading!!

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  18. nice post
    words were beautiful
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    1. thank you Chirag :)
      will surely visit your blog!!

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  19. A beautiful Read :) :) sakshi kudos ,loved it :) :)

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  20. I followed your space for i found fragments of me here. You write so well :D

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  21. awsome,That is only what I want to say...

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    1. Thank You so much GokulDas :)
      and 'awesome' is a word more than enough :)
      Keep reading!

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  22. loved the passion in your writing..keep up the good work!!

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  23. nice feelings !!nice combination of words..kudos .....

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  24. I loved the concept & the way you have embraced each fall to eventually make it a ladder for ascent. Life is all about failure & achievements; and when you learn to cope them up with no one could digress you.
    Nice! :)

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    1. Hey Gayatri. thanks a lot:)
      I'm glad u liked the post :)

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  25. What a beautiful Post Sakshi, Truly Beautiful.

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  26. Sakshi I am truly mesmerised by your writing, you write so beautifully and with so much of depth.
    I could relate to each of the lines and somehow i re-read it, to feel it, the desire, the pain, love, compassion etc.
    It has truly come out of your heart and this has touched my heart! :)
    Loved your style, it is superb and fabulous.
    One of the best works I have read in recent times and I am glad to hve read it!
    Keep writing and Sharing!

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    1. Thank You Kislaya :)
      You've truly made my day by writing this comment here.
      It takes both will and honesty to write such a compliment.
      Writing is the best thing that happens to me and to get such compliments give me the confidence to go on..
      I'm really glad that you could relate to this post :)
      Keep reading here..!!
      Thank you once again :)

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    2. Pleasure is all mine... :) I will definitely keep reading here so I have become a member of your blog! :)

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